Eulogies

by The Creeps

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1.
These cigarettes will kill me, I know. But these days are kind of long Without some smoke to blow. You said, “lean on me I’m strong enough for two. As long as you can carry three Because I’ll climb right back on to you.” But now it’s okay, yeah, everything makes sense. I guess I’ve known it all along. These old thoughts of mine are enough to do me in. So I’ll just keep on patching walls Over and over again. You said, “lean on me I’m strong enough for two. But if your knees should buckle once We’ll tumble right back on to you.” I've got your number.
2.
All these nights I lay awake Thinking thoughts that never change. Just close your eyes and let go. Just close your eyes. All these nights I lay awake Thinking thoughts I shouldn’t think. I could have lied but I didn’t. I could have lied. And everybody will laugh and say that I ought to know. You said, “You’ve got that look inside your eyes that says you’re letting go.” All these dreams I can’t quite shake Linger like smoke when I’m awake. Just follow my eyes if you dare. Follow my eyes. All these dreams I can’t quite shake Will follow me to the fucking grave. I should have lied but I didn’t. I should have lied. All these dreams. All these nights.
3.
03:03
There’s a ghost in the mirror. There’s a ghost in the mirror. And I don’t know how but it’s wearing me down. She said, “You’re freaking me out. You’re just not quite yourself.” She said, “You’re scaring me now.” She said, “You’re scaring me now.” And I don’t know just how this will end But I know the end is coming soon. There’s blood on the walls. There’s blood on the walls. She said, “You’re seeing things that aren’t there at all.” My blood’s staining the walls. My blood’s staining the walls. She said, “You’re killing yourself.” I said, “I’m watching it fall.”
4.
I just don’t know if I want anymore of this. These thoughts are circling like buzzards overhead. But I don’t need more than you now. “Oh,” she said, “you worry about the strangest things.” “Oh,” I said, “I worry about everything.” But I don’t need more than you now. You’re holding steady but I need saving, come on.
5.
02:22
All my goddamned life I’ve had troubles with my mind. Like troubles sleeping nights And troubles feeling fine. But still it caught me off of my guard. It caught me off of my guard. How I just feel like dying.
6.
Last ten seconds of life are gonna pass before our eyes, my friend And this time we’re serious. Take handful of pills, drink a box full of wine again. Baby, we’re poisonous. I said, “I can’t wait to be through with this life.” She said, “Not me. Not now. Not ever.” “What do you mean? I’ve already gone too far I’m fading fast. I thought we were in this together.” If you don’t want to come It’s okay, baby. Just leave it to me.
7.
03:24
And if cancer’s going to fill my body then maybe nicotine Was always the right answer and I just gave up too easily. She said, “You’re staring out the windows And you’re just screaming at the walls. And you’re just crawling out of your skin now And there ain’t nothing there at all.” I guess I figured it out. I guess I figured it out. That when I hear voices in my head that That’s the darkness coming over me. I guess I figured it out. I guess I figured it out. That when I see shadows climbing walls And I’m just too afraid to sleep. That when I hear footsteps down the hall that That’s the darkness crawling over me. And if cancer’s going to fill my body then maybe gasoline Was always the right answer and I just need a fire to come clean.
8.
I run from the night even in my home. All I’ve ever wanted is to be alone. I bear watching. I’ve been seeing things that maybe aren’t quite there. And I know all of this leaves you a little scared. I bear watching. You’d better wait a minute with every step that I take. I bear watching. I run from the night even in my home. I hear footsteps down the hall even when I’m alone. I bear watching. I’ve been seeing things that maybe aren’t quite there. Shadows climbing walls and those ghosts in the mirror. I bear watching.
9.
01:54
I’ve got this feeling in my head And I’ve been feeling this dread now for so long. I’ve got this pounding in my chest And I’ve been feeling so restless now for so long. You said, “you worry about the strangest things.” I said, “I worry about everything.” I haven’t felt like me in so long. So long.
10.
03:13
A little spark becomes the flames. A little dark, then suffocating. A little water, then I’m out in the deep. One more whisper might bury me. Do you gotta reach out? Really, really reach out? Before you fade away. Lights out and calmly let go.

credits

released May 14, 2014

Skottie Lobotomy - Vocals & Guitar
Ian Evans - Bass
Jordy Bell - Drums & Vocals

All songs written by The Creeps © 2014
Recorded July 2013 at Yogi's Meatlocker Studio, in Ottawa, Ontario, Canada

Engineered and Mixed by Paul "Yogi' Granger

Mastered by Dave Williams at Eight Floors Above
(eightfloorsabove.com)

Cover Art by Julie Kraulis (juliekraulis.com)

Design and Layout by Adam Alive

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